Bite the bullet for the sake of ………..a piece of paper

You work for a company, you know the work you do is to increase profits and to be cautious of innovation which is the essential part of your being.  You keep telling yourself you are buying time, and you can take control of the situation and beat it.  But there are days when your heart races, your hands shake due to anger and frustration, and there is no way out.  You can’t leave, you can’t quit, for the sake of … a visa.

As an non-citizen in this country, not only do you have to learn to be a good and a successful person, you also need to make sure you do not cross the lines.  You can’t take chances and take risks for the first risk is deportation.

What do you do when your eyes burn and you have to pinch yourself just so tears don’t uncontrollably fall?  What do you do when your hands shake so much typing becomes a challenge?  What do you do when you are just sick of telling the same people who encourage you to “follow your passion” that the impact of quitting is more than just quitting?  What do you do when your future and the future of your entire family in another country far away is based solely on your shoulder?

I pray.  I breathe. I text my sister and my best friends.  I avoid eye contact with the people that cause my trembling.  I think about all the good things that could happen to my family if I don’t do anything, if I don’t take the risk, if I am stronger.

What do you do?

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2 thoughts on “Bite the bullet for the sake of ………..a piece of paper

  1. thank you for your words …. it’s good to hear from people who are in the same boat …. but I do have hope and faith that it will get better … it has too

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  2. There is a saying, “To whom much is given, much is required.” I know not the weight nor magnitude of your dilemma. But I do know what does not kill you, makes you smarter and stronger. Keep the faith! Build your plan, then execute. There is greatness in your future. It’s not who you think you are that stops you. It’s who you think you aren’t. DREAM… PLAN… BUILD… MOVE!

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